pass the message

"The popular commercial press, because it is popular and profitable, has broken the ancient monopoly of intelligence."

silly people

put words in your mouth, but still you have to go on

Another promise has been broken...

I told my boyfriend that I'm jealous over some girl on his site. I told him I don't like the girl because I can feel she's into something. First, she added 3 of my friends on her list including him. Her profile says she's from CA. But then she tells him she's from here. Grrr..I just don't like her. Period.
He said he will erase her on his list. But then he didn't.
I hate him.
Now I don't wanna talk to him ever!
He can call up that girl and spend time with her for all I care! From now on, I'll stop thinking about him. I will not talk to him nor send messages to him. I've had enough.
I don't know if he's doing this on purpose, but I just can't take it anymore. I don't wanna love someone who's so insensitive about how I feel...much more, someone who doesn't keep his promises.
I should have known better.

I used to think...

that people tend to suffer because they make a big deal out of small things. I used to think that it's either black or white..there's no middle gray. It's either a 'yes' or a 'no'..that 'maybe' isn't an option. I thought it's that easy. I thought it wrong.It's never that easy...and there are some considerations. And the reason why people get complex is because of their emotions. What we think and what we feel sometimes differ. And we're having a hard time deciding which one to follow. Should we be logical or emotional? Should we listen to the cerebral or to the hypothalamus? The answer is up to us. It's funny how we ask for advice to other people. I have always believed that an advice is something you already know yourself, but need others to confirm it. And sometimes, we wish they tell us the opposite because we just don't wanna do what we should do..because it's hard..because we don't want to... because we're not ready..we're not prepared..or maybe we just don't wanna give up yet. We're hoping against hope for something good to happen that would lead us back to where we used to be... to that certain place...to that certain person.It's 'denial' for some and 'faith' for others.The tragic is, people become bitter and afraid. Bitter for the 'should haves and could haves'...and afraid for the 'what ifs'.....And worse, we blame ourselves. And we're never the same again.If we get in a situation like this, what should we do? I don't know what your answers are. But for me, I'd pray. Pray for someone who would come and save me from this depression. That somewhere out there, that someone exists.....only for me.And when the right time comes, he's gonna come up to me and say, "Snap out of it."
Then you'd feel grateful for those people who had caused you pain..because they honed your strength, courage and perseverance...and in the process, prepared you for that 'someone'.
Thank you Jhen, for making me realize these things...sometimes, you teach me things just by telling me your experiences. But it would be better if you'd realize this also..hehe.. Peace!

A teenage thing..

This morning, my sister's friends came over. And one of them was Ken. He's a 17-year old teenager and a former high school classmate of my sister. He said he finds me beautiful and that he has a crush on me. I was like, 'Okay..' then laughed. I didn't know what else to do.He really is a teenager.Anyway, on the left are pictures of my sister and her friends in high school. They call me "Ate Sarah". Hmmm... they make me feel I'm really 4 years older than them.. Haha! These guys are just 17. While I'll turn 21 this year.

A thing about men

"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition to save you from heartache."

The war is over

My heart was beating fast when he sent me a message this morning. He said it's time for us to talk again and he's done re-evaluating his self and life.
It's like I'm able to breathe fully now.
Gosh, I missed him so much! We didn't talk for 2 weeks and I was thinking that maybe it wouldn't work out between us..but it did. Seems like it even made us stronger and closer.
I told myself, I'll work this out with him and I'll be more sensitive and less childish.
He makes me realize a lot about myself... I like the way I feel...the way he's making me feel.